This Way and That

I made my decision – one of them. It wasn’t as hard as I had expected it to be or as hard as the one that still waits. I think my concern was not so much what to decide as how my decision would effect others, and I just had to sort out my priorities. It’s always important to think of others, but never at the risk of doing serious harm to yourself.

Even as I was relieved by the easing of its burden, it seemed out-of-place with everything that is going on around us. After watching the news and seeing the aftermath of the attack at Qana, I couldn’t help feeling selfish and pathetic.

How can I be concerned with things like my book contract and where I’m going in my material life when innocent people – so many children! – are being maimed and dying? I recite du’as and I pray for them. I feel pain and anger. Yet, that is nothing in comparison to what they are feeling.

Am I strong enough to bear what they are going through should I need to? Would I be able to suffer like that and never once waver from my faith? I hope so, I say so, but until I actually prove my faith through the tests God gives me, I can’t be sure, can I?

My greatest turmoil right now arises from something so simple compared to what is going on in Lebanon and Palestine and every other country that is suffering – Muslim or not.

How do people live out their lives? Why do the things that look so ordinary and normal from their perspective seem so scary and momentous from mine? Am I making mountains out of molehills? Am I over analyzing life? Or do just have a problem with handling emotional issues that I haven’t realised yet?

One thing is for sure, I haven’t heard of anyone experiencing these things that I am. I can’t be the only one having to deal with this, but people seem to be silent about it. If you’re out there and can understand what I’m getting at – say something!

Bint Ali


6 thoughts on “This Way and That

  1. Re: A request … Yes Please!

    Alaykum Salaam,

    Yes, yes, do add me! 🙂 I still have to figure out how to make my blog appear in all the right searches, but sisterly help is more than welcome!

    I’ll add your blog to mine to (for all that will help at this time!)

    Bint Ali

  2. Re: A request …

    Salam Alaykum,

    Trust me I was over-joyed when I came across your blog. I tend to drop by every now and then to see if you’ve updated and added a new post.

    Thank you sister, for commenting at my blog. Insha’Allah may Sayeda Al-Zahra (as) accept us all as her servants.

    Sister can I add a link of your blog on mine? This way I wouldn’t have to make google searches on peppermints 😉


  3. Re: A request …

    Alaykum Salaam, sis Mardhiya! I was just remembering you the other day – I guess my vibes called out to you and I’m so glad 🙂

    I’m going over to check your poems straight away and will see you on your site, insha’Allah.

    Thanks for dropping by, do come back and bring friends.

    (Addicted to the Ahlul-Bayt(a))
    Bint Ali

  4. A request …

    Salam Alaikum,

    What I remember of you is a mad admirer of Sayeda Al-Zahra (sa), and a poem in praise of her holiness. I would never forget ‘Fatima is Fatima’.
    I always wished to thank you sister for framing an inspiration for me, leaning on which I could express myself. I’m not sure if you’re updated with the current poetry forum, but I would love to hear your views on the two poems which I have dedicated to Sayeda Al-Zahra (sa).

    You can view both the poems on my blog which is dedicated to the Prophet’s beloved …

    Kindly scroll down … the poem ‘Fatima Al-Zahra (sa); and ‘Weep for Al-Zahra’

    With regards,

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